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break of dawn

© 2014 harper blue music

waited for you
until the break of dawn now baby
i know we’re through
and i know that it’s wrong but maybe
me and you
we could try again this year well
what could we do
if we stopped pretending things were ever
just fine the way they are
just punishment for
the crime of trying too hard
everyone i know’s afraid of dying alone but baby
i’m more afraid of being alive
did my texts go through
i must’ve written sixteen baby
they were for you
just like all my dreams are lately
empty too
that missing man formation is my life
absence is cruel baby
now i understand that things were never
just fine the way they are
just punishment for
the crime of trying too hard
everyone i know’s afraid of dying alone but baby
i’m more afraid of being alive


I woke up around 7a today, wrote this, and fell back asleep. I’ve been miserable all day, more than usual, but I thought if I made myself put up a quick acoustic webcam video demo, I’d feel better; here is an mp3 conversion of the source audio.

never die

© 2013 harper blue music

scientists have discovered
that there’s a black hole in my chest
light and heat can’t escape it
they get pulled in with the rest
my bright hopes and my burning desires
are subsumed by this long-dead star’s mass
my heart stretched by the weight of such gravity’s
pulled until there’s nothing left
i let my heart go
therapists have uncovered
the ravening pit in my brain
all its teeth pointed inward
lining the path of escape
my best ideas are covered in gore
from the holes that those teeth helped create
too disturbing to be shared aloud
so i keep them to myself and wait
and let my mind go
i had finally recovered
insight that i had forgot
that each soul lives forever
whether it wants to or not
i was not born so it can’t be said
there will ever be an end to my life
there is nothing more terrifying
than the idea that i’ll never die
i let my soul go


A quick acoustic webcam video demo is available; here is an mp3 conversion of the source audio. I like the festive holiday light string across the top of the frame for this song.

resection

© 2005 harper blue music

what street is this
it crosses wilshire and the 101
no wait that isn’t it
it hits the 10 west of koreatown
it makes a little t
there’s west there’s east
there’s you and there is me
i walked along it south
or did i float a foot above the ground
i don’t know how i got here
i can’t even remember where i’ve been
all that i can say for sure is
whoever said
of mice and men
hold on
what time is it
where was i supposed to be ten years ago
unhappy accidents
the trap was set and i am in it now
another little me
another opportunity to throw away
that which you love me for
is killing me each day a little more
i don’t know how i got here
i can’t even remember where i’ve been
all that can be safely said is
the best-laid plans
of mice and men
often go awry


A quick acoustic webcam video demo is available; here is an mp3 conversion of the source audio.