Category Archives: Songs

never die

© 2013 harper blue music

scientists have discovered
that there’s a black hole in my chest
light and heat can’t escape it
they get pulled in with the rest
my bright hopes and my burning desires
are subsumed by this long-dead star’s mass
my heart stretched by the weight of such gravity’s
pulled until there’s nothing left
i let my heart go
therapists have uncovered
the ravening pit in my brain
all its teeth pointed inward
lining the path of escape
my best ideas are covered in gore
from the holes that those teeth helped create
too disturbing to be shared aloud
so i keep them to myself and wait
and let my mind go
i had finally recovered
insight that i had forgot
that each soul lives forever
whether it wants to or not
i was not born so it can’t be said
there will ever be an end to my life
there is nothing more terrifying
than the idea that i’ll never die
i let my soul go


A quick acoustic webcam video demo is available; here is an mp3 conversion of the source audio. I like the festive holiday light string across the top of the frame for this song.

yellow baby

© 1996 harper blue music

i’ll die with a smile
painted upon my face
and leave you eliza but
don’t you dare wait
i’m off to see daddy
i’m up with my fame
now that i’m stuck here
i’ll always be late
but i don’t feel so dead
and i don’t feel like dad
just like you see me
after i have left
just like you to use me
for your own ends
come on sell tickets
come on come on sell brandon lee
sell pieces of headstone
sell pieces of me
well and truly dead
well and truly dad


Get the final demo and listen to it with your dad.

year of the rabbit

© 2003 harper blue music

i get no satisfaction out of life
or out of myself
i get nothing that i want
e.g. i’d like to get away from me
and be someone else
or at least sleep a lot more
my placemat says i seek tranquility
that’s about right
my opposite is the cock
i’m not so sure about the second part
if i turn you on
you’ll end up pretty pissed off
examining
priorities
shows exactly what is wrong with me
examining
priorities
shows exactly what is wrong with me
my placemat says that i’m the luckiest
but luck can be bad
and luck can be all you’ve got
my placemat says that i am talented
i guess it’s a fact
i’m good at putting things off
and then it says that i’m articulate
so why can’t i talk
why can’t i get it across
it also says here i’m affectionate
that’s kind of rough
i’ve driven everyone off
examining
priorities
shows exactly what is wrong with me
examining
priorities shows exactly what is wrong with me


wounded

© 1999 Stephan Jenkins and Kevin Cadogan; 3EB Publishing/EMI, Blackwood Music/Cappagh Hill/BMG Music (BMI)


A rare acoustic cover.

The second track from the second major-label release by Third Eye Blind, Wounded is a really fantastic song that I only recently figured out how to play. And when I say “figured out,” I really mean “asked the Internet.”

As far as copyright goes, I think it’s ok for me to give this away and not reprint the lyrics. If I’m wrong, well… please don’t kill me or anything.

the world waited

© 2004 harper blue music

i had a fantasy
that the world waited while i grew up
and the going never really got tough
until i was ready for it
my days were not wasted
i often even got up
my decisions weren’t ever wrong
because i learned something from them
i
fell a long way
’til i
i
let it go
i
fell a long way
’til i
i
let it go
i miss plasticity
and the comfort of a metal arm
of the future that was never dark
before i ever knew a thing
so what have i wasted
what before and what ahead
why is it that i’m not dead
when i stopped growing long ago
i
fell a long way
’til i
i
let it go
i
fell a long way
’til i
i
let it go
when did it start
will it ever end
this wanting to never
have been
’cause i don’t believe
in anything
that includes me
but i had a fantasy


wistful

© 2003 harper blue music

when i was 21
i saw the most amazing thing
i couldn’t talk to her
by one year later
we were having lunch every day
but i was married
so i’m here with you
and not where she is
i long for santa monica
but it’s not the place i miss
i’m always sure
in times like this
that all life has in store for me
is this wistfulness
this wistfulness
when i was 23
i lost the most amazing thing
she wouldn’t talk to me
by one year later
i would never hear from her again
but i was married
now i’m here with you
and not where she is
back in santa monica
with another chance i missed
i’m always sure
in times like this
that all life has in store for me
is this wistfulness
this wistfulness
so the opportunity
i most miss
is back in santa monica
around 1996
i’m always sure
in times like this
that all life has in store for me
is this wistfulness
this wistfulness
this wistfulness


Don’t let the first demo pass you by.

whimper

© 2002 harper blue music

i won’t get far on my own
oh i know i’ve not got very far to go but
i won’t make it all alone and all alone
’cause i know what i know what i know is
i won’t get that far
i know


when you moved out

© 2001 harper blue music

when you moved out
you took the things that made sense
you took the words that i said
and made them stupid and bad
and i meant every one
you took the things by the couch
i think you may even have
had someone take the bed out
i haven’t looked around
someone asked for a photo
i found some in your folders
i didn’t like sharing them
i did it anyway
sometimes i feel like i’m a fake
but now i think that that’s ok
sometimes i feel like i’m a waste
but now i think that that’s ok
when you moved out
you left some bills on my desk
you took your clothes and the chest
you left something in my head
that i can’t get around
should i be grateful for your
letting me borrow your car
you got it when you lost mine
i paid for most of it
the cats don’t know who you are
the dog well he doesn’t care
he’s happy when you’re around
when i’m just standing there
sometimes i feel like i’m too late
but now i think that that’s ok
sometimes i don’t believe in fate
but this looks like my life to me


what did i do

© 2001 harper blue music

i’ll tell you something
something about me
i think you know
i’ll tell you anyway
drama and romance
and jealousy
all these things
they are not for me
i moved beyond them
and that’s where i’ll stay
i won’t go back
not for anybody
what did i do
nothing
that’s right
what could i do
i have these feelings
what can i say
being with you
doesn’t take them away
you’re very important
you’re not everything
i’ll leave you
before i leave me